love;

my boyfriends the GREATEST .

today was the best day ever.
we realized alot and yeahhhh .
this is it cuh!
hes mineee<3
im hisss<33

he LoVES me :)
yeah , today was the day <3

bizzyboneeeee

about my sick post,

im not sick, but i am .
i mean wow .

i said i wantedd a big start for 09 right?
is this it? oy vey .
grabbin my usc sweater, my hotpocket and my bizzy and off to nates to show cuz me and the boyfriends puppy .


<3

blegh !

:( THIS FUCKING SUCKS! OMGGG .

why me ?

i feel sicker than a DOG .

BOYFRIENDS21

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BOYFRIEND <3

21 YEARS OLD.

AHHHH


LJDorsey<33

the past 19 years in a box .

2008.... lmao . straight jokes.

this year was ridiculous , it was a pure 365 days of NOTHING .
nothing beneficial was gained or done .
just things lost . pain on myself . people inflicting pain on me , which caused pain on others .
the only good thing that really happened this year,
is i got closer to my Mother, and Kyla J. Toney.
and i gained a boyfriend who I can say for once i have Full respect for.
not just as a human, but as a boyfriend.
I guess you can say I'm finally growing up.
I'm over the pointless nights up til 5 am when I had school or work the next day.
I'm over thinking the world revolved around me. I'm over not trying to make a way.
The life we live today, is the begginning of the life we pave for our future generations.
I know everyone else is a little too young to understand me on this, but its time for me to grow.
to spread my wings and fly.
the valleys kept me trapped since 10th grade, and i can finally say im free.
I show up and do things valley involved when i have time.
Right now, lifes about me and making a way for me and my family.
Thank you God for finally givingg me the wisdom to accept things as they are,
and change what I can.
Bad company corrupts good character and alot of the company I had in the valley was corrupting my good character.
but as they always say YOU LIVE AND YOU LEARN.
Goodbye 19 years of my life...
Heres goes the beggining... my life at 20 yrs old is JUST begginning....

Live Life, Regret nothing. Just Realize, and learn!

luams still a beast

THIS IS WHY SHES MY FAVORITE CHOREOGRAPHER EVER.
MADONNA? REALLY?

QUICK.

21ST OF THE MONTHHHHHH
GET UP GET UP GET UP

lol 4 days till christmas.... 5 days til the boyfriends 21.

its cold as fukc. and im hungry . DAMN .

havent written in a while. nothin to say .

as hJ wouldve said... SAY NO MO!

gaydome;

infamousisnessa (3:39:49 PM): give me $31 dollars so i can register for class .
kayywhyyx (3:40:26 PM): if i had 31 dollars i would.
kayywhyyx (3:40:36 PM): go put your boyfriend on the track.
infamousisnessa (3:40:53 PM): naw thats what you're forrrrrr .
infamousisnessa (3:40:55 PM): hes too mean
infamousisnessa (3:40:59 PM): you can pull some bitches .
kayywhyyx (3:41:04 PM): lmfaoo.
kayywhyyx (3:41:10 PM): nuh uh..
kayywhyyx (3:41:18 PM): not unless they look like :).
kayywhyyx (3:41:37 PM): ahhhhhh!
kayywhyyx (3:41:40 PM): and they clean.
kayywhyyx (3:41:46 PM): put a paper bag over my headdd,pleaseeeeee.
kayywhyyx (3:42:03 PM): im scared of eating pussy cause my tongue ring.
infamousisnessa (3:42:32 PM): lol ull be alright . pwaahahahaha
infamousisnessa (3:42:51 PM): kayywhyypiee.
infamousisnessa (3:42:54 PM): it rhymes .
kayywhyyx (3:43:10 PM): lmfaoo.
kayywhyyx (3:43:15 PM): LMFAOOO.
kayywhyyx (3:43:21 PM): diddd thaaaa.
infamousisnessa (3:43:25 PM): looool
kayywhyyx (3:43:33 PM): ahhhh,i need a girlfriendddddd.
kayywhyyx (3:43:37 PM): wtfreaaaak.
infamousisnessa (3:44:01 PM): no you just need some kaypiee

$$$$$$;

lmfao. im starting to take more and more people as a joke .
its kind of ridic .

this year my christmas present reciever list is real short.
mom, ky, wookie, and maimai.

anyways... figured out what i really really want .
Money ,
Xbox 360 ,
Emporio Armani Diamonds Intense,
or a Cockerspaniel puppy cuz i miss mine =[

I start skool january 9th .
college of the canyonsssss yeeee!
im kind of excited to go back to a normal college .
my career goals are finishing two years at coc and then transfering to USC!
major: Cinema/Video Production .

so far im registered for one winter class
Cinema-Film Asthetics TWTH 7pm-10pm
and im wait listing Cultural Anthropology.

20 yrs old this coming august .
WOW im getting O-L-D .

MOVING ON IN LIFE ....
gettin my shit together .
started my ticket payments , till then -_- no liscence .

still gotta pay back a good 2500 . h0pefully i lease 11 apartments this month and next .

IF YALL KNOW ANY1THAT NEEDS AN APARTMENT...
EMAIL ME . I KAN GET U ONE FOR CHEAP!
diamondpark.lease@fpimgt.com
Washer/dryer, ceiling fan, dishwasher, gas stove, balcony, walk in closet, big big big living room .
anywhere from 757- 1110
and HUGE 2 bedrooms for 1345-1380

BOMB CUHZ . i saawwaaayer!

peace, love , && green .

wookie;

hes AMAZINGGG !
he js left , coming back 2nite tho :)

but hes fckn GREAT .
and mai brought my memory card back so pictures .
tonight . tomorrow . and however else long he stays .

lol cuhz had me HEATED last nite , but its all good .
he fixed things pwahaha .
bby<3

a tribute to the 09 year .

happyness comes when you least expect it,
and you're not looking for it .

im starting off the o9 year with that man up there .
like he always says "im hoping this goes alot further"
kinda scary , right? the fact that im going to be 20 .
gotta start thinking about my life as an ADULT .
and start living for myself and not others.
doing things to benefit me, my happiness, and my future life .


my christmas list-
gift cards to cute clothing stores ,
(urbanoutfitters, forever 21, wetseal, c.russe, macys, planet funk,)
gift cards to cute shoe stores,
(wild pair, bakers, nine west, nordstroms)
$$$$$$$,
armani for women,
xbox 360,
sound system,
my plasmaaaaa! (but i already know im getting that :])

i dont want much this year .
shit even if i dont get any of the above, ill still be happy .
im alive, and i figured out things finally .
i got a new apt, a good job with potential to grow, im paying off bills slowly but surely, im establishing a relationship with that cunt asshole dick father of mine, i have a SMALL circle of about 5-8, and i have an amazing boyfriend that makes me smile 28/8 ...is very mature and treats me like a fuckin queen..

o8 has definitely not been my yr. lost 2 good friends.
lost an uncle .
o9 however, payin off bills,
brother moved back to cali,
good paying job if i work hard enough,
best boyfriend ive had yet .
lets see how things turn out ...

now mymoms leaving in january, BUT shes doing it for me.
deep right? my granny sends her 1200 a month for rent, and shes going to give that to me.. so thats lets see...
work-1600
mom-1200
bonus-300-1320

thats any where from 3100- 4120 dollars a month
so that means no debt, no stress, nada.
you might be reading this sayin, fuckin spoiled bitch ...
in all reality , right now im working hard for ME living check to check.
barely making ends meet, no car, no fone, no nothing.
so once this money starts coming in the right way
after all these bills are paid (which is a good 2Gs)
YES THEN i will be spoiled!
CAMARO- POPPIN,
G1- pOPPIN
iPHONE- POPPIN
HOUSE ALL DECKED OUT- POPPIN
SPOILING MY LOVED ONES- POPPIN
INCLUDING THE MISTER- POPPIN.

mai, alexis, elexis, kyla, zach,wookie, dennis, itana, nate, turboe, kk, shianne, and red.
are going to be my spoiled brats, i promise you .
i love you guys and thank u for holding me down when times got rough .

so long, farewell .

you can only fight people for so long . . . until you have to give up.

this blogspot is probably the only OLD thing i'll keep.

new aim.
new myspace.
new number.
new bf.
new car.
new friends (well some of them).
new house.
new life.

goodbye to the old , hello to the new.
goodbye hasan jones,
goodbye old friendships,
goodbye old memories,
goodbye childhood,
goodbye socialism,a
goodbye being young and dumb,
goodbye immaturity,
goodbye old lifestyles...

the only one i'll probably be bummed about losing is hasan jones.
but again , you can only fight someone for so long before someone has to lose a battle .
and it looks like this is a battle i've lost.
and theres just no getting around it.
i love you hasan , and goodluck .

H.Jones.//Lajuan

I dont know.

Hasan Jones. . . *smh.
its a shame how our friendship always takes a turn for the worst because we both want to be happy.
i love that nigga ... prolly more than i love my damn self.
love that boy almost as much as i love benF.
he really just does not like the fact that me nd Lj are tlkn.
and i dont know why. i really dont know why.
the past 4 days i been cryin cuz of this shit.

this nigga Lj really is the shit i look for down to the T.
aside from me thinkin hes cute.... cuhz is an amazing person.
shit btween me nd him was fast and unpredicted.
its weird but i like it.
the smile i have, or the smile his bro has... like if hasan saw that... he'd know.
if anyone should know what thats like it shuld be him.

when him nd p were tlkn he stayed cuz SHE made him happy. didnt care what other ppl wanted.
he made himself happy. why is it now , i cant be happy?

i love you hasan . . i hope you really realize.

movingonup;

yessss ; finally have my own apartment by myself .
:) partttaaaaaaaaayyyy .
=] jdfsakljdads

i gotta pee tho

and im hungry

byeeee

obama4mankind;

i move in 2mrw!

FUCK;
YES!

BAAAAAMBBB

BRODIE; NO FUCKIN HOMO.

SHE SEXY AS FUCKKKKK.

THIS PICTURES FUCKIN TIGHT;

I WANNA DO A PHOTOSHOOT LIKE THIS.

LIKE A PIC OF OBAMA WITH

A COUPLE PEOPLE DRESSED IN THE SAME FIT.

WITH HER HAIR HANGING DOWN.

&& SKIN TONES SHOWING.

AND THEN A PIC OF THEM ALL HOLDING THE
PICTURE UNDERNEATH THEM...

MAYBE MID STOMACH

THEREFORE SHOWING tHEiR REAL FACEs;

MEANIN; OBAMA= THE PEOPLE.

DEEP RIGHT?

imready;

idk why but this song randomly popped up in my head

i remember the first time i heard it i fell in love. india arie is definitely one of my artists.

shes gonna get put on "the list"

"the list" consists of all of the artists that i enjoy so look out for new additions to that.

president-elect.

funniest shit i saw the day Barack won the President-Elect;

"A black man
running,
and it ain't
from
the police!"

fuck females_ on the dead ones .

&now i realized why i dont trust females ;
they never mean what they say. females do make the worst friends.

saw my berto tonight ; its so funny cuz when he was still here i was old nessa . and now tht he sees the new me he just trips out. im proud that hes tryna be in pretti's life. not alotta men stand up to do that. weve both changed alot and im proud of him . he still put alotta shit into perspective for me.


okay so im too faded so im goin to sleep.

COASSSSSSSSST GANG

Obama For America &Americas Mommas

reality dawned on me today and it brought TEARS to my eyes.

it still is bringin tears to my eyes.

"from Emancipation Proclamations to I HAVE A DREAMS to YES WE CAN to YES HE DID!"
Historic Day In American History.
Barack Obama- The 1st Black President
& The 44th United States President
Congratulations-

OUR 2009 President Elect IS AFRICAN AMERICAN.
MY HEART IS LITERALLY IN A PAIN OF JOY RIGHT NOW.
like everyone had their moment on the 4th.. but today, IT KICKED ME IN THE ASS.

ALL THE YEARS OF FIGHTING SLAVERY
THE YEARS OF FIGHTING SEGREGATION
THE YEARS OF FIGHTING 4EQUALITY
ALL THE YEARS OF FIGHTING FOR FREEDOM . . .

and now, an african american male

SOME ONE WHO NOT TOO LONG AGO WAS NOT CONSIDERED A HUMAN LET ALONE A CITIZEN OF THE UNITED STATES, WILL NOW BE RUNNING THE SAME COUNTRY THAT HARMED AFRICAN AMERICANS FOR SO LONG.....

America has come a LONG way.
We had this highest voter turnout this Nov. 4th 2008.
Im proud of you America.

They say that the youth turn-out really helped him win the elections.
So, I'd also like to thank my fellow peers that went out and
took the initiative to register and to vote.

Americans, We've done our part. Now its up to Mr Obama to keep his word.
Hopefully, this is the start of a new beginning for America.
Lord knows we need it.

I will continue to pray for the safety of our president . .

The next couple of posts will be just for our president elect -
1st African American and the 44th President of the United States,

-Mr Barack Obama

"Hes not THE answer,
but hes a damn good start."

vaginaaaaa;

"Ladies as long as you got a vagina,
you run the ENTIRE MUTHAFUCKIN UNIVERSE!!"
- Katt Williams

CANON50D; SEXXXXXXXX;

BUY ME THIS AND I'LL MARRY YOU. OHHH MYY GODDD;

"newly designed 15.1 Megapixel CMOS sensor delivers ultra-detailed, low-noise images – ideal for large-scale reproduction or creative cropping. New manufacturing processes, plus redesigned photo diodes and microlenses, extend the light gathering capabilities of the sensor – allowing more pixels to be fitted on the CMOS sensor without compromising image quality. These changes ensure improved high ISO performance and low noise. High-speed, low light shooting is enabled by ISO levels of 3200, expandable to an ultra-sensitive 12800."

heartless

tired of being taken advantage of....

i lost my soul; to these niggas so heartless .



crying. breakdown and im tired of hurting....

never tell;

WROTE THIS SHIT A LONGGG TIME AGO JUST TO LET U KNO

you seeee i told myself i would never tell you this but...

i feel like

if i hold this in

just a little more longer

my mind

is going

to have

a breakdown,

nooo,

not because 0f my th0ught capacity

but because of the inability for me to express myself

to you

which leads me

to this.

now see

i told myself id never tell you this

but,

i think about you more in one day than time itself will ever allow.

the amount of times you run thru my head is more than the maximum capacity of thoughts that ones mind can process in a lifetime.

& that is why

because of you,

i believe when they say

impossible

is

nothing...

so why is it that i,

the 0ne who thinks about you

more than the G0d who created you

knows no more of your existance...

yup;

people talkin shit
but when shit hit the fan?

everything im not
made me everything i am

sock;

badbitch paid like fuck it!
stack stashed
in her sock like thee;
lookin for a bonnie to his clyde;
a;
ride or die
a;
nigga;

she sees;
onLy;
when she sleeps;
so that means;
hes;
just a figure in her dreams

i wrote this as my away message and it makes so much sense to me.

the girl works hard to make money to take care of herself;

a female on her grind.

so she tucks her stack away

cuz he told her what the streets r like;

she tucks it away

cuz she sees the significant him in her life

always tuck'n his stash away;

she tucks her stash in her sock to be like him;

it makes her feel closer to him;

it makes her feel like theyre doing something together;

so the time and distance apart;

the neglection she gets from him;

the things in common she doesnt even know if they have;

because theyre never near each other...

is brought together by her tryna do what he does..

its now them being united all by her trying to be like him

by putting her money

in her sock.

&&with this action . . . i forget about hiMM neglecting MMe . . .

you wont get it if you dont know MMe or me

now all girls catch on to things their guy does; and whenever they do it, it puts a smile or a warm feeling in their stomach cuz it reminds them of the happiness that man brings. whether ist poppn ur gum, sayin a certain word, doin a certain dance a gesture... whatever it is it makes us as females feel closer to our guy cuz it reminds us of what he looks like when hes doing it....

thats what this was about.

groovybaby;

lmao; so i know they're weird right? I KNOW ALOT OF PEOPLE TEND TO DRESS LIKE ITS THE 70S BUT DAMN.... but what it does is even weirder . . .


"Their soles are filled with water, displaced as the wearer walks and forced through a tiny turbine. Current prototypes generate 1.2 watts of electricity, enough to power your iPod as you strut, but by the time these things hit production in 2010 the hope is to more than double that to 3 watts so that you can charge up your mobile, too."

NO ONE IN THEIR RIGHT MIND SHOULD THINK A CELL PHONE OR IPOD IS THT IMPORTANT TO WHERE U NEED TO WEAR THAT. WHAT IS THIS WORLD COMING TO

iwannago2newyork

because of this woman right here;
Luam
one of the ILLEST choreographers out there right now
madddd propz to her;

go to her website show love
http://www.luam.net/

&thas real;

"i know its been a while sweet heart,
we hard-ly talk,
i was doin my thang,
i kno it was foul,
babay,
ay babe,
lately, you been all on my brain . . ."
-Kanye West

tradingplaces;

damn all i have to say is this video is like a sex journal lmfao. but id hafta say its one of my favorites right now; i dont think ushers cute never did til i saw this video;

canntfindthewords;

IDK WHO SHE IS BUT SHES BOMB; she kinda reminds me of alicia keys, tiffany evans and lauren london put together in the first video.. the 2nd video she jus looks like tiff evans. and the second video has a deep message i like her.

armand jones

it took two yrs; but justice was finally served. ive been meaning to post a blog about it but havent had a chance 2. you guys remember armand jones? he was in freedom writers (grant rice) the 1 tht was put on trial for killin the asian dude.. if u dnt remember here he is... armand j0nes aka yung pr0zpect;

well a little while after the movie . .. he got shot outside a dennys in anaheim by 2 bitch ass niggas tht was tryna rob him for his chain nd he wuldnt give it to them. for a fuckin chain his brother got shot n the head, and survived . . . armand got shot in the chest, and died. its sad kuz armand had such an amazing future ahead of him but 2 bitch ass niggas went and took all tht away

heres the guys;Jarell Kelly aka CHOCOLATE

Damon Hill

Well, theyre both facing life in prison with no parole. HERES THE CHARGES;
One account of murder
one of attempted murder
three counts of second degree robbery
and "sentencing enhancements" for criminal street gang activity,
murder committed for a criminal street gang purpose, the vicarious discharge of a firearm by a gang member, and the vicarious discharge of firearm by a gang member causing great bodily injury.

after two years, its about damn time justice was served.
heres a few more pictures from the scene
Rest In Peace Armand;
still cant believe you're gone . . .
theres so many times where im goin thru shit where i wulda hit u up, and now its likke.... i aint got tht privelege anymore.
see u one day! take care of Aydehn while u up there!

CONTREVERSY;

so i took some time and went on yahoo to see if they were covering the fires out here and i crossed something that caught my eye and attracted my attention a little more .. .
"best rapper award" Vibe Magazine;

they chose this slut;Eminem aka Slim fckn Shady
now, dont get me wrong the white boys got talent and all but, BEST RAPPER?
youve got to fucking be kidding me.

they had some nice lineups, and some really stupid ones
BELOW; i listed their lineups that stood out to me
and my input on them.

Jayz vs Eminem
You'd think theyd put hov against the ever so controversial NAS
or even Weezy . . .
NO they put hov vs em.
the dumbest shit ive EVER seen in the rap industry.
WAY TO GO VIBE -_-
MY VERDICT; JAYZ. POINT BLNK

Nas vs Joe budden
i didnt even kno this guy was still alive man like wtf is going on?
i thght Hov vs Em was dumb . . . no Nas vs Joebudden took the cake.
MY VERDICT; NAS NO QUESTIONS

Lil wayne vs Trina
now i kno theyre ex's nd theres some tension there and all but REALLY?????
i thght theyd do Wayne vs Juelz or Wayne vs Hov or even Ti. . . .
or =] Nicki minaj vs Trina.. now thatd be a battle for tht ass.
MY VERDICT; NO CONTEST

Lauryn Hill vs Lil Kim
ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME . . .
YOU HAVE eclectic empowering Lauryn Hill vs raunchy hoodbitch Lil Kim.
i mean id understand Lauryn Hill vs Erykah Badu
or Lil Kim vs Nicki Minaj OR REMY
but DAMMN opposite style of rapping. thats like ballet vs krump dancin wtf?
MY VERDICT; LAURYN HILL

Cam'Ron vs Juelz Santana
now that waws actually one of the nice battles.
i like both of em and i thnk theyre both talented artists
however id love to see fab go against juelz.
MY VERDICT; JUELZ SANTANA . . . AY!

Fabolous vs Cassidy
thats a good one. theyre both hella ill lyricists
however i think we shulda stuck the philly rappers together.
maybe REED DOLLAZ VS CASSIDY?
or even the contreversial cassidy vs lil wayne
MY VERDICT; CASSIDY

Missy Elliot vs Lil Mama
WELL if you know me, you know how much anomosity I have towards Lil Mama, so the fact that they would compare a vet in the game like Missy Elliot to this untalented tryhard disgusted and pissed me the fuck off. COME ON VIBE. YALL GOT SOME KINDA SENSE!!
MY VERDICT; MISSY ELLIOT. HANDS DOWN

Lupe vs Qtip
very different but similar at the same time. their voices sound alike, they give u tht sense of REAL talent. .. lupes just a little more updated in my eyes so i think the newer generation would chose him but the older cats in the came can appreciate both.
MY VERDICT; LIFELONG TIE

Mos Def vs Talib Kweli
two sick ass emcees man i swear.
lyricist skills are off the radar and honestly idk who would win cuz theyre both geniusz
MY VERDICT; TIE

Kanye West vs Foxy Brown
HOW FUCKING DUMB AND IGNORANT CAN YOU BE??
KANYE VS LUPE IS UNDERSTANDABLE
BUT KANYE VS FOXY BROWN MY NIGGA?
WHO TH' FCK IS A FOXY BROWN.
lets talk about foxy brown vs jackie-o
thats kinda disrespect ful to kanyeeezie vibe . . .
MY VERDICT; KANYE WEST

Lloyd Banks vs Young Buck
both former gunit members . . .
theyre talent i guess u culd say theyre on the same level
but the crying just doesnt cut it for me . . .
MY VERDICT; LLOYD BANKS

Jadakiss vs Beanie Sigel
how do you even compare the two?
simple as that
MY VERDICT; JADAKISS

Andre 3000 vs Dizee Rascal
now this is what pissed me off;
how many of you outside of the "RIZE" krump world
really knows who Dizee Rascal is?? EXACTLY.
comparing him to a legend like Andre3000 is like comparing Hov to Soulja BoY
MY VERDICT; ANDRE 3000

Method Man vs Redman
The battle of a lifetime. i wouldnt neccesarily call it a battle, i think we just would all want to see it cuz they go so far back and are closer than a car full of mexican immigrants. i love them both especially Redmans sexy self lol!
MY VERDICT; Rapper- METHOD MAN
Personality- REDMAN

STAY TUNED; I GOT A FEW MORE

WHO I WOULD LIKE TO SEE DUKE IT OUT;
JayZ vs Nas (AGAIN)
Jayz vs Lil Wayne
Lil Wayne vs Eminem
Lil Wayne vs Juelz Santana
Trina vs Nicki Minaj
Lauryn Hill vs Erykah Badu
Lil Kim vs Nicki Minaj
Nicki Minaj vs Remy Ma
Fabolous vs Juelz
Cassidy vs Reed Dollaz
Kanye West vs Lupe Fiasco
Foxy Brown vs Jackie-O

gangs;

so im laying here watching this army movie thats about i guess the vietnam war; now i kno im not vietnamese o0r anything but i am asian; knowing that shit like tht really happened made me wanna die for them. a man got his head beat open right in front of his grandmother/mom... a woman got shot in her head in front of her husband and daughter because they killed her pigs... and 2 little girls were stripped naked bcuz the men were gna rape them. . . i was crying and it really made me sick. the fact that large groups of people walked thru towns like they ran shit,l letting off guns, ruining ppls homes....... GANGS. its the same concept.... so while your gangbanging kuz u feel hurt by wat the gvmts done to you or your family... take a step back and look at you and what youre doing... YOU HAVE BECOME THEM . . .

grrawrdom

so im chillin by my solow t'nite .

and realized i needa stop livn in the past.

thnks to solow, ryan and nate for bein there.

CHCK THE NEW FLICKR


uhmm had work 2day!

saw nates hott daddy ;] lmfaao!!

im so bored_ ima go shower nd get food

BBL

305G1

Miami; FL.

I wanna have at least 8Gs moving over there, so by january - march is when im gonna go.
i cant live the cali life anymore.
ill be back when im 22, 23... but for now i gotta leave.

a receptionist job $15/hour
and a 2 bedroom 500-800

enough of that but i just found my new found love;
g1 popp'n cuhh_
this little innovative technology beast is my dream come true. its tmobile & google collab.
its exactly like the iphone, but unlike the apple device, the G1 has a QWERTY keyboard :)<3>

bloodsugar;

PRETTY MUCH; not really having a stable home but w/e.
at dennisz for now til shit calms down...


works going good.
i think i got low blood sugar kuz i been hella tired lately..

wellll GOODNITE

mm

today wasnt anything special. went to work nd did my first tour.
gettn control of things faster nd easier than i thought.
then drove out 2 the valley nd picked up my bo0but =]

&& now heshere w. me...

ahhsheesh

he makes me feel...


wowunexplainable.

arigatomrroboto;

today was my first day of work && i really like it.
i feel so grown up now =] no more little kid jobs hehe.

well aint got much to say besides i stayed up til 3 am talkin to quell last nite.
we both said alot & lets jus say;
MY BO0B0OZ BACK =]
supersp0rtd0rk08!

love&basketball;

watching this movie tonight made me realize a few things about males. as emotional as females are, males need just as much support. they too go thru emotional things like us females. they too need someone to vent to when theyre feeling alone.and when you hold a title to a certain male, BE THERE FOR THAT MALE just as youd want him to do for you.

i understand work/ your future is important (basketball) but deserting someone who really needs you, can be really painful.

&& guys are good at payback just like females are! lol


with that being said... i start work 2mrw @9am.
im trying this new whole approach at life.

ima wake up @@ 6 everyday and work out.
its time i get back in shape you know?
im starting a new chapter of my life.

new job, new $, new place, new friends, new happiness.
why not get into shape...





havin a deep convo with someone ive been holding onto for the past 3 yrs...
hopefully the future looks right.

supersp0rtdork0701; 2oo6-2oo8

SO, I SAW MARQUELL . . . and everything felt RIGHT.
2yrs of non existance all ended sept. 11th 2oo8.
i dont wanna get too into details of my emotions right now, just cuz im bout to leave but lets jus leave it like this... i miss him. and honestly, even tho we're just friends . . . i feel complete yet empty at the same time. they say if u love something let it go, and if it comes back then thats how youll know, got to the stop light and i made four rights now im back where i started and your back in my life...


okay 2 songs to explain this situation perfectly.
ne-yo: do you.
trey songz: missing you.

I would love to talk to you in person.
But I understand why that can't be.
I'll leave you alone for good I promise.
If you answer this one question for me.

I just wonder,
Do you ever,
Think of me,
Anymore, do you?

First off let me say congragulations.
Heard that you just had a baby boy,
If he looks anything like his father,
He's the cutest thing in the world.
Swear that I'm not tryin' to start no trouble.
Tell your bitch ass fee she can relax.
I'll leave you alone for good I promise,
There's a question I just gotta ask.

I just wonder,
Do you ever,
Think of me,
Anymore, do you?

I know what we have is dead and gone.
Too many times I made you cry.
And I don't mean to interupt your life.
I just wonder do I cross your mind?

&& trey songz- missing you
It's everything about you baby.
Wanna know where you been lately.
Do you go out?
Do you still live at your old house?
Do you got somebody new in your life?
Cuz I can't get you out of my mind.

And I wanna erase,
but I can't stop seein' your face.
in every girl I try to replace you with.
Why can't I get over it?
Simply cuz I can't...

I can't stop missin you. (can't stop)
Wish I was there with you. (with you)
I can't stop missin you.
No, no, no, no.
I can't stop missin you. (can't stop)
Wish I was there with you. (with you)
I can't stop missin you.
No, no, no, no.

I can't stop...

Missin everything you say,
missin all the crazy love we made.
Why'd you throw it all away?
I want you to know
It's been hell tryna do this without you here.
Baby, '07's supposed to be our year.
You confront my worst fears.
And I had my doubts,
every time you was going out.
Cuz I knew you were tellin me lies
and I can't get that outta my mind.

And I wanna erase,
but I can't stop seein' your face.
in every girl I try to replace you with.
Why can't I get over it?
Simply cuz I can't...

bellybutton;

WHOAAAAAAA; LMAO MYSPACE DOES WONDERS.
POINT BLANK PERIOD.

ILL UPDATE MORE LATER;
I GOT MY CAMERA CHARGER =]
&& I GOT MY BELLY BUTTON PIERCED;
WHO0OA DADDY LOL.

BE BACK LATER.

santaclarita&valley;

looks like im leaving la faster than i thought . . .
the end of this week i will be staying in the valley.
Shoup &Ventura; for 3 months until my 90 days.
then to Canyon Country for me.

goodbye Los Angeles;

welcome back; 661 &the 818.

anotherlovedonelost;

DAMN; THIS IS WHAT ITS LOOKIN LIKE . . .

REST IN PEACE;

ARMAND
KRYS JACKSON
TERMITE
GILBERT TORRES
HORACE SUN
CORNBREAD
JGOOFY

IT really really fuckin saddens me to see all these people passing away. it makes me take heed in the people i have in my life and really makes me thankful for them. my mom, grandma, grandpa, mai, aerica,kyla, doeycoast, hasan, richard, dennis, davion, dom, chris, q, walker, aaliyah, alexis, elexis, jay, brandon, travis, solow, DARRYL, nay, patrick, joey, nate, michelle, joeylove, joeboe, levie, buccwild, dfresh, jrockets, niko, janmark, brian, corrina, killa, jasmine,reese, jericha, i love you all. its crazy how fast life can be taken away from us.
weve all had encounters where our lives were put in jeopardy.weve all gone thru situations similar to the way our loved ones have passed. we need to take heed and realize that one of those people YOU know that passed, couldve easily been you . . or one of your best friends...

deep? yeah, i realize this.

well, im kinda bitter right now. so yeah, lemme get off here and ill write more later if i feel like it.

oh &step1 is in process as of 9.9.o8

&ill be moving out ASAP

flakeydodirt;

8.4.08

SO i havent written in a while. since then lmfao my lifes been interesting.
dropped stef hes a ungrateful rude piece of shit. and im okay with that lmao.
infamous is back i guess.
"niggas aint shit but hoes and tricks" hhaaaaa'

and mom found out she has cervical cancer, so shes not moving anymore. physically she cant because the hospitals over there are DIRTTT.

but uhm, yeah; so august 2nd was the night of my birthday dinner & someone randomly showed up. me her hasan and brian were all there. cute right? lmao "she didnt kno my bday dinner was gna b there" -_- ANYWAYS after we all p0sted on the block. joey and nate came; loves of my lifes. #1 and #2 lmao. i guess i told nate that when were 26 were goin to get married and if hes already married im beatin down his wife lmao. but uhmmmm so on the block; joey diggs did the dirt of the year. wowww. i was so disgusted by him, it ruined my fckn night. copped a 40 sac went to my house w. richard and mark aka lil knuccs && was JADED FADED BAKED BLEEDED AL THAT! i couldnt move. but its been a good bday weekend...


BESIDES THE FACT THAT JOEY LOVE DOES DIRT.
new name_ FLAKEY LOVE AKA FLAKE FLAKE(JOJO) AKA FLAKEYDODIRT lmao.

&my fuckin 19th birthday is 2MRW!!! WHOAAAA =]]

happy birthday to me 2mrw lol.

andddddd LEXIS BABY IS LILNATTBUTT2 3 lmao~~

GONE_

survival;

7.24.O8

LMFAO; TODAY HAS BEEN THE FUNNIEST DAY EVER. ZACHS TALKIN SOO MUCH SHIT;

BUT, I FORGOT WHAT I WAS BOUT 2 WRITE...

OH I WROTE A POEM THE OTHER DAY;
HERE IT GOES;

if life wasnt so hard,
you think wed really be doin all this??
why would it be the free life,
that i wanna rish?

all we tryna do is survive.
and pay these medical bills
jus so grandpa jim can stay alive.

you think we'd be slangin rocks?
out on street corners,
two middle fingers up
screamin out FUCK THE COPS!

you think we'd be sellin ass?
jus to get this cash real fast?

jus so lil sean can get those new js,
so hes the hottest lil boy at school
on the first day.

or so moms can take some time ,
and stop workin so hard.

we do what we have to ta get by,
i mean i dont wanna see another loved one die.

yet they call us the bad guys.
when all we tryna do,
is do what they do...

and thats survive

mike;

7.23.o8

nikki called me and left me a voicemail apparently. (stefons mom) when she called i didnt mention us not talkin, i didnt feel like it was my place to tell her. so i guess when he called her, he told her we were done. she called and left a voicemail that made me cry. "i wanna let you know how much i appreciate what youve done for my son. it makes me happy to know that while were going thru things, theres someone here that took care of him the way i wouldve and i just wanted to say thanks"


well; me zach and turboe are supernevergivers. all i gotta say is WHOA BRODIE. were ballin. blakclabel gresham shit. lmfao. i gotta go to bed tho. i got skool in the am.
WOMPPPP


_infamous...

stringofhope;

7.21.o8

today was a hard day. i tried to act normal towards stefon but, he
doesnt care. were done and thats that. my only thing is, i feel like hes
gonna talk to gina again. and its olike why am i losing him to a little
ass girl! like i jus dont get it... . . idk honestly, i question this
relationships worth. i wonder if me fighting, is worth it. its like ive
simply become something that you forgot.

its easy for me to just go back to reese or travis with ease. those were
my niggas. my rideordies. my thru errything niggas. and i let em go for
stef. and now i lost stef? damn; well, we all know i never give up that easy, especially when i have alot of competition...

fate;

7.20.o8

he rescued me. call it fast or w/e but he did. we stayed up til 730am
talkin about everything. i ,let my emotions get the best of em and he
likes the nessa that was like him. so we decided... he decided we need
to take time apart and i need to go back to the me that he got in this
for; which i have no problem in doing if itll fix us. only thing i
wonder... while im gone, where will his heart be... he says if he sees
the right nessa hes gonna b back but its like what if a new one comes
along... idk man i guess i jus gotta have hope. i jjus honestly hope he
does too. im changing alot of what im used to to get used to him. i dont
wanna say its something i dont like.... i jus needa get used to it. but
@@ the same time, its new... and what if new is what i need to have a
successful relationship.

torn;

7.20.o8

ME ND STEFS RELATIONSHIP;
days go by, and i really sit and wonder how long hell be around for. its like im living a lie. like i honestly kan say hes changed for the worse.
i still love him tho, not a bit less. i jus dont understand why. like i
know why but why so much? theres so many things he doesnt do for me that
i need. that every1 looks and says, why isnt he affectionate? and i
wonder. cuz not even i know. i jus know i love him and i cant leave. as
many times as i thought i wanted to, somethings keeping me here. but @@
the same time its like this has happened before... what if he ends up
like the rest? but then its like im bout to be 19 years old. what if
this is the nigga i spend the rest of my life with? like i sit here and
wonder how people know when they REALLY love someone. and how they know
theyre in love. like what are u supposed to like about a person. i sit
here and think about the first week me nd him got involved. ALL. THE.
TiME. &iT makes me wonder why we fell off that level. why he kuld never
be the same wya he was when i first met him. why we arent the same. why
doesnt he come up to me anymore and jus kiss me or come and jus hold me
like little things like that are what make me happy. and he doesnt want
to do those. in a way i feel like hes intentionally pushing me away. and
@@ the same time i feel like he really cares, so im lost.....

lost



LOST!
and i need someone to rescue me....

HAPPY;

all i gotta say;

3daysstrong =)

diggs;

before i start this post; joey diggs is the greatest person alive!! he sings FUCKING amazing!!

7.12.o8
so stef admited to being a little too flirty but said it wasnt like that. i mean in a way im relieved but at the same time, a nigga can say anything. i jus gotta be a little more cautious with my feelings or trust towards him. =\ slowly but surely i feel like were both jus growing apart. as much as i dont want to say that, i feel as if its true.

moving onto school, i really dont know what im going to do. i need to stay in school til at least august. by that time i can tell my mom im dropping out of ai for lafs.

but, i gotta go write my appeal letter for school. ill write more tonight.

dirtassniggaFASHO;

7.9.o8
SOOOO maimai tries to show me a message she sent to someone on her myspace... somehow it ended up redirecting to stefons myspace like he never signed off or something and the first thing shes sees... is some shit about stefon and some girl natalie...
i saw somethings i shouldnt have seen that really causes me to believe the nigga can be doing me dirt... dont ever say things to another girl that you dont even tell me. dont ever tell a girl shes beatiful and you miss here and yall needa make that happen. nigga huh? cuz if thats how u feel, best believe you can have that bitch. im not gon sit here and let a nigga try and play infamous, ESPECIALLY when the broad aint nowhere near my level. if you wanna try and convince a girl shes everything uve been looking for and ud never do anything worth losing her,
yet steadily talkin to other bitches on some super friendly shit... THERES A PROBLEM MY NIGGA. YES IM TALKIN TO YOU STEF;

SIGNED_iNFAMOUS
_MOOD: IRRITATED AS FUCK.
_FEELING: LIKE I CANT TRUST ANY1
_SONG: NIGGAS AINT SHITxTRINA

bestbirthdayever.

7.8.08

okay so yesterday was pretty much successful.
i got stefon a bottle, a pill, and tree. i hate that nigga rollin, but it was his bday and if that wat was gonna help him have a good bday, i dont care... me caitlyn mai stef &doe went to th' beach. he told them "i really didnt think id be doin anything today. i thought itd b just like any other day, but really... this is one of the best bdays ive had in a while" hearing him say that made me wanna cry... we ended up having a deep ass talk on the beach.
even tho he was thizzed, he still was fully aware of what he was saying... i just wish i could go back to being who he wants me to be. slowly im learning. just like he is. its something special when two people that used to do major dirt come together and are willing to change for each other. im willing to b patient with him if hes willing to change. and the same goes for him. even tho hes changed, i still love him for who he is because i know that person is still in there somewhere. all that we talked about in those 10/15 minutes... make me realize im glad im still here and i believe him when he said "we're gonna make it thru this"

but anyways i never understood the females and why they are the way they are... thats why i cant get close to any of them. im coming to the conclusion that there arent many you can trust. with stef, i trust him.. i just know niggas are niggas. i know he says hes not gonna do anything to fuck us up, but niggas are niggas. shit happens and i dont want shit to happen. but it is what it is.

mind went blank so ill write more.
me &mai are gonna go take a walk;
never give, bitch.

signed_infamous.

update;

6.18.o8

sometimes i tend to wonder, if love is really ever possible. if a "true love" ever really exists. if people really have "soulmates." if that was the case, why do so many relationships fail... . .. why do people argue... why do people spend their lives searching for that perfect person.... in a way i feel like ive found the one, yet at the same time its like we argue so much that it doesnt make sense. if the "perfect" person really existed... arguements wouldnt be a problem. cheaters wouldnt exist. lies wouldnt exist. drama in relationships wouldnt exist.
i kind of feel that people CREATE the perfect relationship in their mind, but the more you sit back and calculate in real life and realistic situations, you tend to realize perfection is hard to achieve. be it in yourself, your child, your family, your friends, your job, schooling, or relationships.
even the sweetest of partners can still have flaws that you dont realize until the situation arises.

i just sat back and looked at my blog and realized i started writing about true love, and then pondered onto perfection... . . . my mind tends to wander. ah wweeellll. ..

back to my life; lately lifes been something crucial.
work; no more jamba juice... the niggas are dirt. end of fuckn story. moms tryna find me a temp job thru some organization... WOMP WOMP.
school; wish i never went but whatever. gotta deal with the hardroad to get th' gold i guess. love; -crossed out.
friends; womp. zach, hasan, maimai, elexis, ky, jerichabby, aerica, and a few others. those are thee main ones that i have left. its funny cuz the ones that said they'd always be here, are nowhere to be found. *smh*

that last catergory leads me to another topic... friends. fuck em all. theyre all fake as fuck anyways. makes me wanna move like now. san lorenzo; florida; new york; which one? *smh* who am i fooling? california is me.. its tatted on me for christ's sake...

well; for now thats all i really feel like writing about. i havent written in here for a while so im sure this made up for alot. && im at moms house tonight so im sure ill wake up middle of the night writing more.

s'all folks;;
`Vanessa Acosta.

wompbitch;

6.1.o8

kicked it w. bucc &lil flii last night in rancho... lit one up nd went to the call of buck. cops was on it -_- saw my brothers tslaught nd solow. saw enforcer goofy nd phoophoo. pretty coo but i was hella tired nd sick.
came home went straight to bed lol and barely startn my day @ 5.14 pm womp womp right?

well; i got hwk tons of it.
and idk wtf to say but

NEVA GIVEEEE;



-infamous cuh

sick;

5.26.o8

IM SICK AS A FUCKING DOG
SO FUCK EVERYTHING RIGHT NOW.

FUCK Ai.
FUCK JAMBA JUICE
FUCK JSLAUGHT.
FUCK YOU.
FUCK FACEBOOK.
FUCK MYSPACE.
FUCK TMOBILE.
FUCK BLOGSPOT.

SOMEONE FUCKIN TAKE THIS SICKNESS FROM MEEEE!!

work @ 8am 2mrw.
FUCK LIFE.

GOODNIGHT.

ps; saturday im going to go spend the day with naheem aka buccwild.
he wants me to fuck with tha hooligans!
hmmm; well see.

gankgsta bkoo;;

4.7.O8

FINALLY DIED THE HAIR RED.
THANK GOD.&& HONESTLY, I FEEL BAD FOR THE WORLD..
KUZ MY SWAGG JUS GOT HELLA MORE COCCKY & ARROGANT.

GANKGSTA BKoo.

FUCKIN SEXIEST COUPLES @@ GRANADA PR0M '08.

THE DAY AFTER. WE WERE OFF LIKE 3 HOURS OF SLEEP.
CUH HAD ME MAD @@ THE TELLY. LOL.
JADED.

<33v.acosta>

wearthatthingilike;;

4.3.o8

so alot has happened recently. first off, janmark played a april fools joke four days before april fools -_- he said he got killed by some mexicans so i was crying. fckn bitch.
uhm, i got a job :) jamba juice babyyyy. they wanna make me a manager. wo0t w0ot.
i also got my dress for mitch's prom<33>

lalalala thats all i feel like writing.
oh btw, i started working out ")

chickenlegs;;

3.26.o8

jus one of them days, that a girl goes through...
when im angry inside, dont wanna take it out on you.

so i found 2 possible dresses for mitchs prom...
in a way i like the first one although its alot more conservative i think i could pull it off good, but i really like how the bottom ones all little and cute and cocktaily ish lol

well, i picked up pooter from the dena... and he was in a really good mood so im pretty much happy right now and hes been bouncin around singin nd shit lol. right before he got into the shower, he had his towel wrapped around his waist and started runnin around w, my roomates lil fairy hat thing callin himself a fairy lmao w/ his lil skinny ass chickenlegs. then he started singin nd talkin bout he needed to grab his penis im like -_- lmfao. jay is the weirdest nigga alive

but uhm 2mrw, meeting with michelle to talk to her about whats been goin on lately, and then meeting with mitch to talk about prom.

<33.v.acosta

randommmm;;

3.25.o8

I GO ON AND ON. CANt UNDERSTAND HOW I LAST SO LONG.
I MUST HAVE SUPERPOWERS.
LMAO. TOOSHORT IS THA SHIIIIEET.

WHATS MY FAVORITE WORD. HAAAAA' AITE so i woke up... feelin myself. on some other shit. but uhm, bo0kie goin 2 pasadena 2day.. SHEEEESh missions cuhz. as for me, workin out... and dyin the hair.

gotta get ready for mitchs prom =] april 5th like.... im tryna find a dress right now as we speak =]

but uhm, its lowkey hot. idk wtf i wanna say so MOOOOOOVIN!
7 times.
trey times.
however many times.

lmao.

<33v.acosta.>

bitchass;;

3.17.o8

all that actin brand new shit.....
all i gota say is...
yall on that bitch shit in o8.

its 2oo8, so yall are on that brand new BITCH shit.

;;rip horace sun

3.17.o8

wow.
that sums up the past what week? so last time i wrote on my blog, me and Christian were involved but on break. meaning its still just me and him but we were both focusing on ourselves without other people. but since then, i called it quits w. him. i cant put myself on hold for someone especially if u not wifey lol!!

also, did i see my blasian. had an interesting wednesday nite session... but im sorry... no 818 krump session is that serious to where omarion needs to show up right? right. death, nigga. w/ his short self. but uhm...

thursday went to dinner w. my mom gramma and crystal. hung out w. crystal for a bit... although it wasnt long, i think we needed that. both said alot of things that needed to be said. hopefully, but slowly we can reform our friendship... i mean lemme take that back... hopefully, but slowly we can reform our sisterhood.

friday... went to mr millers house nd spent the night... all i can say is sheesh... old school or what? talkin bout old memories and shit. sheesh. hahahah got wat i wanted "lalalalalalalalalalalala tha pussymonsta"

saturday went to the funeral....
i love you horace!!!
it was beautiful... it was hard to speak when crystal went up but, i did. i realized i took horace for granted while he was here and if i could have one last conversation with him, itd be thank you. its weird to know that i cant touch him anymore or see him. its like... thats it. theres no more... agh okay lemme stop getting emo.

after that, maimai came with me to the flashy kydds party. im glaad she knew ppl there and had a good time. mr veeru is tryna convince me his ass doesnt have alotta bitches -_- nigga, and banks dont have money. lmao... but uhm he was loooking cute at the party ill give him that might hafta add him to my book! ahahahaha. i saw my playhubby bass =]]]] and was very happy too until he danced with a BITCH that i LOVE to hate. so we were arguing for the last 30 sumodd minutes of the party. had fun w. neek, wifey(bbney) && my sis.

and today dropped mai off and went back 2 mr millers.
dont really know what i wanna write so when i get more, ill update.

till then.... peace.

<33v.acosta>

desmond&incest;;

3.9.o8

so i ended the night, with a 2 hour fone convo with desmond.
sheeeshhh. im glad my friend was here for me to vent all my fucked up problems to. lmao and im glad he laughs at the fucked up side of my life and how he believes some things i got myself into i will never get out. i love you dez. and i appologize for the mistakes in the past ive made about you.
i love you and if i could go back in time, i would!! but i cant... so i wont. THATS WHY U GO TO USC AND MOVE 2 SAMO!! lmao.

the only thing that bothered me was this part of our convo::
it was helllllla suspish!!
"some thing something i wanted to have sex with you until about 12 seconds ago"-dez
"oh wow thanks des that was far too much info"-me
"what! what guy doesnt wanna have sex w. a girl"-dez
"uhm doeboi jones"-me
"thats cuz they look at u like a sister"-dez
"exactly"-me
"well, i look at you as a sister. just a sister that i wanna pipe"-dez
lmaooo INCEST??? MUCH!


well kids, 2mrw shall be interesting. ill contemplate life @@ the beach while you all are @@ school.

goodnight america.

;;supasport

3.9.o8

if im in a fight with your ex, and you're sticking up for your ex... dont ever expect me to not be mad. im tired of niggas that dont stand up for their females. lets look @ the whole bamm situation. when me and him were 2gether... mark went hard on me, and instead of stickin up for me... he left. wtfawk. and now, c wants to go and defend his ex broad... wow. dont ever. im so fed up. and he wonders why im mad. ha' wowww.

like my ideal guy;; would have to be...
a fckn sweetheart that knows how to cater to his girl, yet at the same time is helllla hood. he got that thug look.member the video soldier w. destinys child and lil wayne and ti? okay member the dude that beyonce was on when she said " the low cut ceaser w. the deep waves so quick to snap up y0 bey0nce" THATS THE KINDA NIGGA I WANT. the kind that drive arround in they ss and flip tha c0rners t0 make that bread, (now when i say make that bread he aint gotta make alot... he jus gotta have that hustlers ambition) and come back to his girl givin her EVERYTHING she wants and needs cuz he a mommas boy and all mommas bois kno, treat ya girl how you treat ya momma. i want a dude who got all his bitches, but never cheats and knows his girl is wifey. i want a nigga that when a bitch gets outta pocket, hell let me take care of shit my way... i want a hood nigga that got respect for women, that knows how to satisfy his girl in everywhich way possible.

ladies, its not always about the luxury. trust.
i look at alot of my homegirls, and theyre worried about how much niggas got in they pocket nd shit.. even if they settlin for less or sellin themselves short. but ladies trust me. some of my best relationships have been with niggas that come from the hood or are in my position. Quell, Reese, Chris, Bamm.

theres times where i miss quell, kuz i know before the bev situation, everything was perfect. he gave me one of my best birthdays i had ever had. genuinely, even tho i told him he was like every other nigga, he wasnt. he stuck in my mind throughout my years and everytime a hood nigga came along, he was compared to quell. if he didnt do the things quell did, he wasnt shit.
and then theres times where i miss chris. although our relationship was hella disfunctional, something was going on right if we lasted as long as we did. its everything he went through for love. everything he did for love. his idea of love was an idea that i have never seen before and i treasure and hold close to me in my box of memories which other call a heart. although id never get back with any of these guys or have feelings for them again, i miss the relationships. in a sense, they were perfect.

dont make yourself look bad just to be happy ladies...
just think to yourself this question that i am now asking myself alot more than i should...
in the long run, is it worth it?
lookin for my idea of perfection in what seems like a hopeless mission. . .

<33 style="FONT-WEIGHT: bold; FONT-STYLE: italic">the 3 guys i know will never hurt me;;
"husband""besty"
"other half"