torn;

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ME ND STEFS RELATIONSHIP;
days go by, and i really sit and wonder how long hell be around for. its like im living a lie. like i honestly kan say hes changed for the worse.
i still love him tho, not a bit less. i jus dont understand why. like i
know why but why so much? theres so many things he doesnt do for me that
i need. that every1 looks and says, why isnt he affectionate? and i
wonder. cuz not even i know. i jus know i love him and i cant leave. as
many times as i thought i wanted to, somethings keeping me here. but @@
the same time its like this has happened before... what if he ends up
like the rest? but then its like im bout to be 19 years old. what if
this is the nigga i spend the rest of my life with? like i sit here and
wonder how people know when they REALLY love someone. and how they know
theyre in love. like what are u supposed to like about a person. i sit
here and think about the first week me nd him got involved. ALL. THE.
TiME. &iT makes me wonder why we fell off that level. why he kuld never
be the same wya he was when i first met him. why we arent the same. why
doesnt he come up to me anymore and jus kiss me or come and jus hold me
like little things like that are what make me happy. and he doesnt want
to do those. in a way i feel like hes intentionally pushing me away. and
@@ the same time i feel like he really cares, so im lost.....

lost



LOST!
and i need someone to rescue me....