a tribute to the 09 year .

happyness comes when you least expect it,
and you're not looking for it .

im starting off the o9 year with that man up there .
like he always says "im hoping this goes alot further"
kinda scary , right? the fact that im going to be 20 .
gotta start thinking about my life as an ADULT .
and start living for myself and not others.
doing things to benefit me, my happiness, and my future life .


my christmas list-
gift cards to cute clothing stores ,
(urbanoutfitters, forever 21, wetseal, c.russe, macys, planet funk,)
gift cards to cute shoe stores,
(wild pair, bakers, nine west, nordstroms)
$$$$$$$,
armani for women,
xbox 360,
sound system,
my plasmaaaaa! (but i already know im getting that :])

i dont want much this year .
shit even if i dont get any of the above, ill still be happy .
im alive, and i figured out things finally .
i got a new apt, a good job with potential to grow, im paying off bills slowly but surely, im establishing a relationship with that cunt asshole dick father of mine, i have a SMALL circle of about 5-8, and i have an amazing boyfriend that makes me smile 28/8 ...is very mature and treats me like a fuckin queen..

o8 has definitely not been my yr. lost 2 good friends.
lost an uncle .
o9 however, payin off bills,
brother moved back to cali,
good paying job if i work hard enough,
best boyfriend ive had yet .
lets see how things turn out ...

now mymoms leaving in january, BUT shes doing it for me.
deep right? my granny sends her 1200 a month for rent, and shes going to give that to me.. so thats lets see...
work-1600
mom-1200
bonus-300-1320

thats any where from 3100- 4120 dollars a month
so that means no debt, no stress, nada.
you might be reading this sayin, fuckin spoiled bitch ...
in all reality , right now im working hard for ME living check to check.
barely making ends meet, no car, no fone, no nothing.
so once this money starts coming in the right way
after all these bills are paid (which is a good 2Gs)
YES THEN i will be spoiled!
CAMARO- POPPIN,
G1- pOPPIN
iPHONE- POPPIN
HOUSE ALL DECKED OUT- POPPIN
SPOILING MY LOVED ONES- POPPIN
INCLUDING THE MISTER- POPPIN.

mai, alexis, elexis, kyla, zach,wookie, dennis, itana, nate, turboe, kk, shianne, and red.
are going to be my spoiled brats, i promise you .
i love you guys and thank u for holding me down when times got rough .