1/2_amus.

"The ultimate test of a relationship is to disagree but to hold hands." - Unknown

if you know me, you know who this is about. period.

i guess thats what my problem was... i guess i thought even though we disagree'd, youd still be here holding my hand. you'd still be here to tell me "i told you so" if this ever falls, and to hug me and make me stop crying like you did the night of the party at legion... i thought you'd still be here to walk with me through this thing called life....


and its sad that its come to this;
acting like we know nothing of each other.
like complete strangers...
no, not even a hi or bye or a head nod to acknowledge each others presence. . .
nothing more than "vanessa" or ... no need for names.

all i can do is think about the friendship we once had
the friendship i once thought would be here FOREVER....
how it shattered in an instant . . .
and i guess you can say part of me is to blame,
but honestly if you could see things from my eyes...
if you saw things the way i was looking at them
if you saw the way i AM treating this situation . . .
if you saw the way we both feel....
i think you might have felt a little differently about me and him.

i mean who knows maybe we'd still be friends.
i was taught to live life regret nothing . . . everything happens for a reason.
losing one friendship that meant the most to me is the ONE and ONLY thing i have ever regretted.... and i see no reason for you not being here.
i see no reason for us not being as we were... at least a hi and bye would keep me content...
it wouldnt "do" but it would keep me from crying everytime i see you
and we walk by each other and act as if weve never met...

someone who was once my other 1/2... now a stranger in my life....

"It's sad when someone you know becomes someone you knew"- Henry Rollins

i still love you ..

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