Relation &ships.;;

1.31.08
stephens bday.
elisias bday.
the end of the first month of o8.

i forgot to say earlier that the ampm by his house sells probably every flavor of Calypso imaginable.

But, as you probably imagined, the eye wasnt showing. -_-. Yeah, hella stale face. Infact, patricks moviefone lied to us. NOTHING happened to be playing after 10pm. -_-? yeah, definitely. So, we went to innout, wendys, and then his house.

theres times where i know he jus got too many for me... and i doubt hed let it all go for ME and nothing beneficial is going to come out of this just like mr "d-fresh". but hey, try everything once right? i guess.

i mean, theres times i just get tired. Tired of not having a stable relationship. the last stable relationship i had was with Brian Christopher Nemorin Miller. i never said perfect cuz lord knows we had issues, but we were stable. i mean eight months? ha'

this brings me back to a conversation i once had with dennis about him and rachel.
he told me that all of his relationships he had after her, were like "replacements" or like "rebound girls" cuz he really had a deep genuine love for her and he compared every one to her. i think its the same with me. cuz theres times where i find myself thinking about "what if" i never did what i did? "what if" we were still together? wed be together 1yr3mnths.

WOW. idk, i guess i dont want him, i jus want the idea of him. i see people in year relationships, and really wonder how they can go so long? how do you not get bored of the same person? its always been something i dont understand. but when i figure it out... ill be sure to let you know.

with that being said... farewell.

<3v. acosta



most influential thing of the day;; You always hurt the one you love the most.