gankgsta bkoo;;

4.7.O8

FINALLY DIED THE HAIR RED.
THANK GOD.&& HONESTLY, I FEEL BAD FOR THE WORLD..
KUZ MY SWAGG JUS GOT HELLA MORE COCCKY & ARROGANT.

GANKGSTA BKoo.

FUCKIN SEXIEST COUPLES @@ GRANADA PR0M '08.

THE DAY AFTER. WE WERE OFF LIKE 3 HOURS OF SLEEP.
CUH HAD ME MAD @@ THE TELLY. LOL.
JADED.

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wearthatthingilike;;

4.3.o8

so alot has happened recently. first off, janmark played a april fools joke four days before april fools -_- he said he got killed by some mexicans so i was crying. fckn bitch.
uhm, i got a job :) jamba juice babyyyy. they wanna make me a manager. wo0t w0ot.
i also got my dress for mitch's prom<33>

lalalala thats all i feel like writing.
oh btw, i started working out ")

chickenlegs;;

3.26.o8

jus one of them days, that a girl goes through...
when im angry inside, dont wanna take it out on you.

so i found 2 possible dresses for mitchs prom...
in a way i like the first one although its alot more conservative i think i could pull it off good, but i really like how the bottom ones all little and cute and cocktaily ish lol

well, i picked up pooter from the dena... and he was in a really good mood so im pretty much happy right now and hes been bouncin around singin nd shit lol. right before he got into the shower, he had his towel wrapped around his waist and started runnin around w, my roomates lil fairy hat thing callin himself a fairy lmao w/ his lil skinny ass chickenlegs. then he started singin nd talkin bout he needed to grab his penis im like -_- lmfao. jay is the weirdest nigga alive

but uhm 2mrw, meeting with michelle to talk to her about whats been goin on lately, and then meeting with mitch to talk about prom.

<33.v.acosta

randommmm;;

3.25.o8

I GO ON AND ON. CANt UNDERSTAND HOW I LAST SO LONG.
I MUST HAVE SUPERPOWERS.
LMAO. TOOSHORT IS THA SHIIIIEET.

WHATS MY FAVORITE WORD. HAAAAA' AITE so i woke up... feelin myself. on some other shit. but uhm, bo0kie goin 2 pasadena 2day.. SHEEEESh missions cuhz. as for me, workin out... and dyin the hair.

gotta get ready for mitchs prom =] april 5th like.... im tryna find a dress right now as we speak =]

but uhm, its lowkey hot. idk wtf i wanna say so MOOOOOOVIN!
7 times.
trey times.
however many times.

lmao.

<33v.acosta.>

bitchass;;

3.17.o8

all that actin brand new shit.....
all i gota say is...
yall on that bitch shit in o8.

its 2oo8, so yall are on that brand new BITCH shit.

;;rip horace sun

3.17.o8

wow.
that sums up the past what week? so last time i wrote on my blog, me and Christian were involved but on break. meaning its still just me and him but we were both focusing on ourselves without other people. but since then, i called it quits w. him. i cant put myself on hold for someone especially if u not wifey lol!!

also, did i see my blasian. had an interesting wednesday nite session... but im sorry... no 818 krump session is that serious to where omarion needs to show up right? right. death, nigga. w/ his short self. but uhm...

thursday went to dinner w. my mom gramma and crystal. hung out w. crystal for a bit... although it wasnt long, i think we needed that. both said alot of things that needed to be said. hopefully, but slowly we can reform our friendship... i mean lemme take that back... hopefully, but slowly we can reform our sisterhood.

friday... went to mr millers house nd spent the night... all i can say is sheesh... old school or what? talkin bout old memories and shit. sheesh. hahahah got wat i wanted "lalalalalalalalalalalala tha pussymonsta"

saturday went to the funeral....
i love you horace!!!
it was beautiful... it was hard to speak when crystal went up but, i did. i realized i took horace for granted while he was here and if i could have one last conversation with him, itd be thank you. its weird to know that i cant touch him anymore or see him. its like... thats it. theres no more... agh okay lemme stop getting emo.

after that, maimai came with me to the flashy kydds party. im glaad she knew ppl there and had a good time. mr veeru is tryna convince me his ass doesnt have alotta bitches -_- nigga, and banks dont have money. lmao... but uhm he was loooking cute at the party ill give him that might hafta add him to my book! ahahahaha. i saw my playhubby bass =]]]] and was very happy too until he danced with a BITCH that i LOVE to hate. so we were arguing for the last 30 sumodd minutes of the party. had fun w. neek, wifey(bbney) && my sis.

and today dropped mai off and went back 2 mr millers.
dont really know what i wanna write so when i get more, ill update.

till then.... peace.

<33v.acosta>

desmond&incest;;

3.9.o8

so i ended the night, with a 2 hour fone convo with desmond.
sheeeshhh. im glad my friend was here for me to vent all my fucked up problems to. lmao and im glad he laughs at the fucked up side of my life and how he believes some things i got myself into i will never get out. i love you dez. and i appologize for the mistakes in the past ive made about you.
i love you and if i could go back in time, i would!! but i cant... so i wont. THATS WHY U GO TO USC AND MOVE 2 SAMO!! lmao.

the only thing that bothered me was this part of our convo::
it was helllllla suspish!!
"some thing something i wanted to have sex with you until about 12 seconds ago"-dez
"oh wow thanks des that was far too much info"-me
"what! what guy doesnt wanna have sex w. a girl"-dez
"uhm doeboi jones"-me
"thats cuz they look at u like a sister"-dez
"exactly"-me
"well, i look at you as a sister. just a sister that i wanna pipe"-dez
lmaooo INCEST??? MUCH!


well kids, 2mrw shall be interesting. ill contemplate life @@ the beach while you all are @@ school.

goodnight america.

;;supasport

3.9.o8

if im in a fight with your ex, and you're sticking up for your ex... dont ever expect me to not be mad. im tired of niggas that dont stand up for their females. lets look @ the whole bamm situation. when me and him were 2gether... mark went hard on me, and instead of stickin up for me... he left. wtfawk. and now, c wants to go and defend his ex broad... wow. dont ever. im so fed up. and he wonders why im mad. ha' wowww.

like my ideal guy;; would have to be...
a fckn sweetheart that knows how to cater to his girl, yet at the same time is helllla hood. he got that thug look.member the video soldier w. destinys child and lil wayne and ti? okay member the dude that beyonce was on when she said " the low cut ceaser w. the deep waves so quick to snap up y0 bey0nce" THATS THE KINDA NIGGA I WANT. the kind that drive arround in they ss and flip tha c0rners t0 make that bread, (now when i say make that bread he aint gotta make alot... he jus gotta have that hustlers ambition) and come back to his girl givin her EVERYTHING she wants and needs cuz he a mommas boy and all mommas bois kno, treat ya girl how you treat ya momma. i want a dude who got all his bitches, but never cheats and knows his girl is wifey. i want a nigga that when a bitch gets outta pocket, hell let me take care of shit my way... i want a hood nigga that got respect for women, that knows how to satisfy his girl in everywhich way possible.

ladies, its not always about the luxury. trust.
i look at alot of my homegirls, and theyre worried about how much niggas got in they pocket nd shit.. even if they settlin for less or sellin themselves short. but ladies trust me. some of my best relationships have been with niggas that come from the hood or are in my position. Quell, Reese, Chris, Bamm.

theres times where i miss quell, kuz i know before the bev situation, everything was perfect. he gave me one of my best birthdays i had ever had. genuinely, even tho i told him he was like every other nigga, he wasnt. he stuck in my mind throughout my years and everytime a hood nigga came along, he was compared to quell. if he didnt do the things quell did, he wasnt shit.
and then theres times where i miss chris. although our relationship was hella disfunctional, something was going on right if we lasted as long as we did. its everything he went through for love. everything he did for love. his idea of love was an idea that i have never seen before and i treasure and hold close to me in my box of memories which other call a heart. although id never get back with any of these guys or have feelings for them again, i miss the relationships. in a sense, they were perfect.

dont make yourself look bad just to be happy ladies...
just think to yourself this question that i am now asking myself alot more than i should...
in the long run, is it worth it?
lookin for my idea of perfection in what seems like a hopeless mission. . .

<33 style="FONT-WEIGHT: bold; FONT-STYLE: italic">the 3 guys i know will never hurt me;;
"husband""besty"
"other half"

wasteoftime;;

3.8.o8

2days a waste of time.
i guess im supposed to meet every1 in a little but its taking forever so i really dont feel like it.

pretty much bored// irritated.

that picture makes me happy...

<33v.acosta>

headache;;

3.7.o8

guys r fckn weird.
the end.

take all of me for who i am...
or you get nothing...

hereby stating that.. infamous is the other side of nessa.
infamous is who everyone knows...
you got a different side of nessa...
and you see infamous and dont like what you see...
well, you can enjoy your side of nessa
and everyone elses side of infamous..
or you can be like everyone else and get the FUCK YOU infamous gives everyone else.
personally, id prefer you hold onto option A but..
.the choice is yours...

<33v.acosta>

iGOTthisICEBOX;;

2.25.o8

title of this blog is very, very symbolic.
because right now, my heart has been turned cold. i finally decided to let go of things. well let me rephrase that... let go of people. the relationship ive had with certain people over years have to be let go. and have formed new relationships with certain people.... and this past time that i haven't been blogging, i've been contemplating. i finally let them go.
but before i really begin into this post, i want everyone reading to know what i say on this blog is from the real me, the inner me.

well, i'll start with the oldest relationship.
Ebonayre Dontae Stuckey;; Nerd & Dip... Our friendship/ relationship, whatever you want to call it was ongoing for four years. he was that one guy that regardless of who comes along, if i needed that emotional attention or physical i could go to him. I always still had feelings for ebonayre. he was really one of those few people in my life that i really do LOVE. and when i say love, i dont mean... hi you're my friend i love you. i mean... we've been through so much, from the bottom of my heart, i love you. well, recently hes gotten close to a certain someone. a certain someone that would prevent me from continuing this relationship. so i finally called it the end... i cried hella bad that night. hes someone i never wanted to let go of, but i had to. Ebonayre, i hope you made the right choice....

the next person...
Maurice Norville;; my bRat... well, our relationship is alot more intricate than those who are outsiders. it was us, then me and a boyfriend, then him and a girlfriend, while we were still involved. we attempted many times to form a relationship, but it seemed we just could never do it. finally i met someone who i was told was his friend.. who turned out to be his cousin. Reese was always someone i could go to when i needed ANYTHING, as well him for i. Yet, me not knowing his cousin was really his cousin fucked up everything between the two of us. our whole relationship was based on trey songs song "Last Time" in that song, he says, "Im living two different lifes. one girl in the day, you in the night. and even though this aint right, i just cant get enough, of the way you put it down... you really got me trippin. hold up baby girl. dont talk just listen. "Well, recently our relationship had sparked again, when i realized... nothing would ever be more than what it is... and with him, i'd want more than what it was. So i have to say goodbye. Maurice, I will always have love for you. And to be honest, at one point I wouldve done anything for you. well, its time to say goodbye. i love you.

the last person..
Patrick... our relationship wont go farther than what it is... and I'm done with these pointless relationships. Thankyou for everything youve done, taught, showed me... but i cant do this anymore. Goodbye.

well, im going to the valley. write more later 2nite.

<33v.acosta>

san lorenzo;;

02.16.o8

yes i know;; its been 5 days since my last post. im sorry i've been slacking but i was busy prepping for oakland and what not. && well;; im here now. with a minor headache.

so uhm, yesterday my first day here;; i was drunk and high off my ass so i dont recall much of what i said or did. all i remember is laughing at carlos while him and his drunk room mates played rock band (similar to guitar hero) and left random comments on peoples pages including pat pats loll

today;; me nd michelle got our nails done. IN OAKLAND @@ sun nails :] shoutoutts to the miss crew kuz im actually very happy with mine. then we went to china town;; then fishermans gwarf or w.e. its called lol and tried to figure out how to get to the golden gate bridge... but gave up HELLA fast lol.

2mrw= me nd michelle going back to frisco and takingg pictures for my final.

well this weekend has been an experience. the whole thought of not knowing a single person out here besides michelle is amazing. i like it;; although id like someone to give us a tour guide around the slums of the bay lol kuz lord knowws cute guys are somewhere out here.
ha' while stuck in traffic today bumpin droop e;; ran into a car full of dudes... wuldve asked for tree but they were headed the opposite direction lol. but neways i enjoy it out here. i will come back for spring break possibly w. my mom or solow. regardless, ill come back and have fun again and see my stepmom nd bro and sis. and that will be my determination of whether or not i move out here.

ka keeps telling me im very bay and this is where i belong;; i mean... the people are welcoming here... you can openly blow tree? like sheeez i think im n love haha.


well;; thats all i got for now... i took a shit load of pix but my cf readers @@ home in LA so ill post them asap. ha' i love hearing the BART speed by ka's window.
well kids, ill post again when i return to LA.

peace && love ya thizz! ;]

ps. i g0t pink hair dye today... so yeah;; the hairs gonna match the nails... mainy? mos. def.

<33>

cali-for-niy- ay!;;

2.11.o8

so, originally i was going to go to the guy that did zachs moms tat... but he wasnt there... but i HAD to have one of my tats done that day or else i knew if punk out.... so i got my cali tat done =]] . although i passed out lol, it was still worth im. im really happy with the way it turned out. its hella unique :] && the quote for this tat....

"tatted on my hand so it must be permanent"
bL;; L.A.;; CALI till i die.

first tattoo;

2.9.o8

I'm officially letting go of it all. I miss the old days, where I didn't have to worry about a specific guy... so fuck it. "No falling in love, no commitment from me."

Right now, I'm about to get dressed && go pick up the besty aka dOeboi... && we're gonna go get my first tattoo :]] yay me. I'm getting my bracelets done today if things go as planned.I know Precious probably threw up in her mouth when she read that but I mean... I have to have it.

update more later kiddies.

<33>

t`oaks&&lbc;;

2.8.o8

2 pictures describe 2nite....

&&& the second picture =]
that explains the other
part of my night...

&& 2mrw will consist of another trip to t`oaks to see my punkface tD. ;]


[G]Nite America
<33>

rip longhairdontcare;;

2.7.08

Wow, okay so yesterday was very VERY interesting. Lets just say, I no longer take Fundamentals of Design class seriously anymore. Its a joke to me like beyond any other.

pcakesdotcom (7:07:36 PM): it's funny how things work.

I couldnt have FUCKIN said it any better my damn self. Lifes all a big joke to me. Haha thanks Ashton, okay I'm punked, you can come out now... Except no cameras come out for me. Its all a reality joke if that makes any kind of sense.

Well, today my check finally went through.Which means credit card bill payment, phone bill, && patrick. Also, groceries, closet organizer && yeah. I decided I can wait on shopping. I need to start prioritizing like I would in the real world.

The Primary Elections... I'm kind of confused on who won Super Tuesday, because some said Clinton, some said Obama. All in all however, Hillarys winning the elections which makes me VERY happy.

I'm bout to go get in the shower && head to ikea. I gotta get a closet organizer thingy so I have room in my closet for my refrigerator :].

2mrw= Help Acce w. his photoshoot && then head out to thousand oaks to go see my punkface (tD) fina-fuckn-LY!!!!


OMGG.... BREAKING FUCKIN NEWS...
MAURICE "REESIE F BABY" NORVILLE JUS CUT ALL HIS GORGEOUS LONG HAIR OFF!! HE HAS A FADE NOW...
i swear i dont think ive ever wanted to cry this bad in my life. no one has ever been able to make me sad with drasstic changes until this....

im done. i cant function on the computer anymore.
fuck the world.

<3>V.ACOSTA.

americancitizen;;

2.5.08
SUPER TUESDAY

PRIMARY ELECTIONS ARE 2DAY GUYS.
GET OUT AND VOTE.
&& IF YUR NOT REGISTERED...
DO THAT ASAP SO YOU CAN VOTE FOR PRESIDENT IN NOVEMBER!!



Anyways, I'm highly upset to see that Precious deleted her blog. Oh well, I'll blog on for us both lol. but last nite was interesting;; had some pretty deep convos with Patrick, && lets just say I understand him alot better now. There's alot more to him than what meets the eye. Patrick, You're genuinely a great person && I'm really glad that computer didn't work that day. :]. Even though he probably wont read this... hes a great person. You know how they say its the little things that mean the most? DEFINITELY true. Him cooking for me, or making me laugh, or even opening up the way he did last night... REALLY means the world.

Well, thats all for now kids. Oh, I'm gonna be in the valley friday night. Thousand Oaks to be exact. My punkface(tD) will be valley with it so thats where you'll find me.

peace cuhz.
<3v.acosta

ps;; 2wo words...
VOTE HILLARY!!

babieINSANE;;

2.4.08
5.12 am

I just came home from being captain save a hoe nessa for that beach boy kid jay. Ehh yeah hes cute, but goofy as hell. He's definitely Evans friend, that's all i have to say lmao. But as I was saying, I lay here hella tired, but to the point where I'm so tired, that not even sleep sounds intruiging... eating zours while thinking. precious. arianna. samuel. If you delete your blog, mine is pointless you slutcake.

Anyways, today was alot of unexpected shit. Waited for Skyler to come pick up Kalan. Took Michelle home in Reseda, then headed to QT Chicago Dogs for my Phillycheesesteak, orange bang, and large fries. ") It made me hella happy. Called my bby (preciouscakes) && decided I was kidnapping her. So.. dropped off Beez... picked up Pcakes &&jerishaaaa lmao. Took bbney nd jcreezy to the bridge. Basically, P got a bbq chicken pizza... me nd j had a wonderful kush blunt. got precious lowkey up there haha. So we leave to go get b&e nd jericha doesnt feel too well... uh oh right? downhill from there. had to ride with the car windows open. sheeeesh lets jus say when i get cash, my car must be shampooed.

J ended up cleanin the mess, despite her not feeling well. Posted here @@ my casa for a little, then took the bbys home. Got a random call from Evan tryna convince me to help his little beachboy friend no homo. So me && p were ROASTING. Like, who the fuck goes to the Northridge mall @ 2am... Probably robbing malls or something lol. ANYWAYS!!! I being the nice person that I am, decided alright I'll do it. So I finally meet this little "Jay" character. find out Mr Robert Brown or w.e. the fuck that name was, was really a fake lol && that alot of people claimin babie insane really aren't from there.. DEEP RIGHT?!! Also found out that I apparently have a new bighomie lmao. WOW right? ha'

So I'm finally home. Pickin up bazookabby for school 2mrw@@12. I realized hes growing on to me more and more as time goes on. Although hes annoying at times and I really wanna fckn kill him, hes a special dude no emo or nothin. But yeah... I'm tired so fckyrlives.

Btw, YAY GIANTS ")

Goodnight children.
Tomorrow will be another eventful day.
Love you all very much;;

<3v.acosta>
Most influential thing of the day;;


Only I can see the world from this point of view.

kalan;;

2.3.08
6:08am

still havent gone to sleep.
me & kalan are up reading blogs.
:]

so i decided;;
this whole post is dedicated to kalan.

kuz "when all else fails.. nessa loves you"
ha' thats love.


<3v.acosta>

hes back;;

2.3.08
3:47pm

First off, I'm hella happy due to the fact that I woke up to ONE myspace approve comment. It happened to be from "Buccwild," so I smiled cuz I knew it was gonna be something hella random. Sure enough, "that guy is back." Naheem is back in Cali =]. Even though me and him don't talk as much as we used to, let alone see each other as much as we used to, I genuinely have a love for that guy. Real shit, aside from all of the attraction that was there, the conversations we can have are different from the ones I can have with other people. I'm glad to know my mystery man is back. Off to the cove again soon for me ")

So, I ended up picking up Evan from Melrose. Instead of going home, I went to Basira's to get ready &&ended up picking up Michelle. By the time we got to Shannon's party, it was over. Boohoo. Yeah, whatever. Shannon wanted me to "go to the movies and cuddle with him" but I wanted to still go out. By the time I was heading back to the Valley, I didn't have enough gas to go get Shannon.

I ended up getting a random text message from Mitchell talking about what I'm doing on the 6th of April. He won't tell me why, but I have to apparently leave that date open. ??? exactly WTF could possibly be happening that date. He told me it's a surprise and that I have to leave it open. HmMmM... mystery forsure but whatever. He said its a party in paradise & when he finds out more info, he'll let me know. Lol Oh God!!

Well, I ended up picking up Kalan so right now me, Beez, Michelle, Kk, and Evan are at my house. Yes of course, Kalan's rolling up haha..

Precious' post made my eyes water alot. She spoke the damn truth. Regardless of what we go through, no one can tell us shit about our friendship. We have our on and offs, ups and downs, yet we could go back to normal amazing level of friendship. Shes like the better half of me. Everything that I am lacking, she gained. She fills in my voids, hella no homo though lol. I really do think that 19 years from now, we will be that picture. I love you too baby ;] haha. Like she said, it may sound homo, but for us its okay.

Well, 2mrw I believe we're all going to the bridge.
I really wanna see the eye so we'll see what happens.

<3>most influential thing of the day;;
Life is about making choices, and the consequences of those choices.
Mistakes will be made, but live life, regret nothing.